Day 57

1. People who tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.
2. People who can apologize for things they've done wrong or that have hurt others.
3. People who can own up to their mistakes without blame.
4. People who can allow you to feel your feelings and not discount them.

Do I know people who fit this description? Very few.

Do I aim to fit this? Absolutely

Do I have room in my life for those that don't? Probably not

Day 40

1. Stacy's plane finally made it to sandy eggo.
2. 5 minute cooking (yay trader joes!)
3. opportunity (knocks once in a lifetime, yo)

Day 39

1. The writers of Lost who keep me entertained (mostly) week after week.
2. Panniken in Del Mar
3. Jon Stewart for the laughs

Days 37 and 38

1. My friends who pick me up when I am blue ~ particularly Deb who stopped by; Carter who offered the best words of wisdom I heard all day; Kevin for not offering any cheeriness, just a big "That Sucks!" and "No Way!"; and Stacy for also just saying "I have nothing to say, that's just a horrible situation"

2. Who/whatever force allowed me to be born here on American soil, rather than certain other places in the world.

3. Puppies

Days 34, 35, 36 Combined

1. My internal instinct to clean... weekends are sooooooooo much more enjoyable with a fresh, clean house... let's just hope that it stays this way.
1.a. Method cleaning products :)

2. The sunshine and summer weather.

3. Mexican mochas when it starts to get chilly out

4. The gay boys who pick me up just when i need it most!! And provide bellyaching laughs and loads of fun at Target.

5.Turbo Tax - for helping me get back $907! Woot!

6. White wine on warm days

7.My dad for giving me a serious April Fools prank!

8. My mom for talking to me everyday, multiple times even

9.Carter and her love of playing dress up

10. Taylor for his monthly mixes, although i think this is the first one he's delivered in a year

11. Lauren for hosting a Pussy Party ~ Can't wait for that one ;)

12.Craigslist.org for hours of entertainment.

13. Michelle & Tyler for cooking enchiladas for me and allowing me to watch bad TV with them

Day 32

I was not sure whether to start this blog with the real deal or with what I am about to say, I went with what I am about to say...
1. The chick in the bathroom ahead of me at Panera Bread today in Rancho Santa Fe. I did not think that human kind could actually stoop so low, but you blew me away. You actually exited the bathroom stall, looked me in the eyes, and said nothing. I did not hear the toilet flush, but gave you the benefit of the doubt that you would have flushed it, especially knowing that people were waiting in line to use it after you. But no, alas, you did not and you made my day that much better by allowing me the pleasure of flushing 3 times to get your literal shit down the toilet. Thanks.

2. Carter for reading these and checking up with me. And to assure me that I am not alone in some of my quirks.

3. Dr. Jeffrey S. - for helping me survive grad school and pushing me to succeed.

4. Taco Surf - for allowing me to maintain my daily burrito habit

5. Glenn - for encouraging me to take a walk today (although I think that it made my cold worse)

6. Kelly - for giving me Cold-Eeze

7. Janelle - for being a happy face at work.

Day 31

1. The girls I coach for GOTR... they are a blast!
2. Lalita for helping me out today
3. My mind for making crazy vivid dreams at night
4. Sex and the City for entertaining me while I'm sick
5. That I no longer have to deal with a certain mean BEYOTCH!
6. Internet streaming - see #4.
7.Chick-fil-a diet lemonade
8. Tupelo honey

Day 24

1. My Brother ~ for taking me to HAWAII!!!
2. Carter ~ for recognizing herself
3. My dad ~ for urging me to get up and go
4. My mom ~ for understanding me
5. Whitney ~ for being the organized coach

Day 21

1. Drugs. The kind that I take on a daily basis.
2. My drive for cleanliness, cause i really do enjoy my house when its clean
3. Fog - cause then I can feel lazy and be okay with it
4. Internship time - to get me up and at em on a more regular basis.
5. Coffee - truly the only thing I look forward to every day

Day 16

1. El Sol - but this pic makes me think of skin cancer... but i still must be thankful for the sun today... it made everything bright and shiny

Day 15

1. My taste in music... a little self-absorbed comment, but I seriously love the music i love. so there
2. My bed
3. My neighbor's cat, Juno
4.The chance to lay out at Windansea Beach
5.Spiced apple mojitos at Confidential... they make me way less shy

Day 12

yes, it's been a few days, but so what?

MY PARENTS - they are always there for me, always telling me that they are proud of me, especially at the times when I feel least proud of myself. I only wish that i could give back what they give out.

OSHO ZEN TAROT - for getting it right every single time!

Day 9

The opportunity to experience pain and suffering within the comforts of my home and homeland and with my family surrounding me.

Day 8

1. My best friend Debra for talking me out of a breakdown, and for keeping me entertained at the mall yesterday and for eating pizza and drinking beer.
2. My mom for always trying to bail me out.
3. My dad for trying to keep me busy for Passover.
4. Trader Joe's for feeding me.
5. My 'pooter
6. My favorite flannel pj's (but dang that stupid hole!!)

Day 7

1. Freedom of Speech

Since when did it become a prerequisite of Myspace that one must cover his/her page with how much he/she loves her/his life, friends, life etc??? It's getting pretty monotonous for me. I am sick of these people. I want to see more of those who recognize, "Hey, my life is pretty crappy right now!" Or, "I'm struggling to survive." It almost seems that people are trying way too hard to convince everyone else (which usually means themselves) that they are the "happiest people on the planet, and woo looky here at all the fun i have at all times. My life is better than yours." Well I want to give you all some suggestions of what to do with these fabulous lives of yours, but I will bite my tongue. Where are the real people?

Day 6 (I was too tired yesterday)

Tired today and feeling pretty blah.

1. SomaFM for streaming such great music (i.e. Groove Salad, Spy something or other, and Beat Blender)
2. The MOMA and MCASD for putting on the uber-hip Thursday Night Thing
3. Casa P for feeding me with the free lunch-n-learn today
4. Sex in the City for always keeping me entertained and matching my moods
5. Brenda for giving me the rad necklace that I was wearing today
6. Mother Nature for not hitting Atlanta or Savannah with the crazy-ass tornadoes yesterday
7. My aloe plant for staying alive and giving me hope for survival

Day 4

Not so droopy. More sleepy, but I drank too much caffeine to go to bed. So now I have started to clean my house which really means that I got the 2 smallest rooms out of the way, have no sheets on my bed, and will probably end up on the main room floor. Oh well...

1. Another props to Trader Joe's for having these amazing frozen quesadillas that are soooo yummy!
2. Swiffer Sweeper Wet
3. My mom
4. Cappy's and it's convenient location (both to my house and to the laundry place).
5. Premajaya for the encouragement :)
6. My SonicCare toothbrush (hopefully my dentist will feel the same in 2 weeks!)
7. Jenny for encouraging me to go to the gym
8. Girly mags for entertaining me while I do 50 minutes on the elliptical
8. All people at 24 Hour PB tonight for excusing my ratty hair and hairy legs.

Day 3 (In Retrospect)

I feel droopy today and did last night and am finding it difficult to know what to be grateful for so here goes:

1. My therapist for pushing me
2. T for having a much needed convo with me
3. Easy to make cheese tortellinis
4. My bed for being so comfy
5. My mind for creating wacky repetitive dreams
6. Peanut butter pretzyls
7. My flowers even though they were beginning to droop just like me

Day 2

1. Girls on the Run for allowing me to volunteer as a head coach!!
2. Starbucks for providing me the caffeine to get through the classes and meetings.
3. Lalita for going to the GOTR meeting with me.
4. My flowers for greeting me when I come in to my house.
5. My parents for always lending a cheery ear.
6. Dr. Schwimmer for getting me in touch with GOTR and interested in research.
7. Amanda for coming to class today and demonstrating her internal strength.
8. Jenny for always making me smile.
9. A certain website for allowing me to watch the L-Word ahead of time.
10. Craigslist.org for always being there as back-up

Day 1 (In Retrospect)

* 24 Hour Fitness ~ Late nite workouts
* Trader Joe's Chocolate Cupcakes (which pre-empted the late night trip to the gym
* Phone convos with old friends
* Free samples at Lancome
* The massage chair at Brookstone (and the customers that waited while I sat for 15 minutes)
* The internet (mostly grateful, sometimes I despise it)
* Marsha Linehan for writing a comprehensible therapy book
* Multi-colored highliters & pens
* Crossword puzzles
* Cheap (yet brilliant) flowers from Trader Joe's
* Strong coffee